Yesterday, belongs to devil. 666. 2006/06/06. Well, a busy day and a pensive day for me.

I'm afraid. Also, I'm tired.

Just don't know. I'm seldom scared of future.

Even though I've known one day I have to face it. At the beginning, I told myself that the person could betray me some day. 'Cause I know him. I've known what kind of person he is. He's not like me. Or us. So, I shouldn't trust him too much. Maybe, now my nightmare comes. What I thought and said becomes real.

This semester is getting over. That means, I may need to face "a change." What makes me afraid is not the change, it's the unpredictable result. I don't know where I will be. If, I mean if, I have to leave, or I'm abandoned, I will not belong to anywhere, never ever. I don't wanna get hurt again.

In fact, I'm trying to get ready for the day comes. Being alone. Only me. Solo. Soliloquy. Monologue. With my guitar. Then, stray. This time, I'm not the person who escapes. No one escapes. It's just over. Like seasons pass.

I have one more month to be with you. After these days, I don't know where you will be, and me either. But I love you. All of you. I begin to miss you already. I can imagine how much I will miss you when I'm not with you, when I know all of you are so happy 'cuase you can hang out together and have great fun. That makes me envy. Becuase I am not with you. Anyone of you. Now I can understand how Ama felt in March.

I know some things may be different when I come back. Some people may leave. And, I will be alone. It's too painful for me to try to find other sweet pals like you. I'm tired of seeking pals. So, if what I guess can be real, then, I will stray. Building my own neverland.

However, I am glad that I can meet you and enjoy such a good time. At least, some part of my dream becomes true. That makes me thankful already.

I love you, Untitled.


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『All the good things in this world are sojourning.』

　　　　　－－ John Keats